Today I told my therapist that she was being too easy on me and she said I have more patience than she’s seen for almost everyone and thing except myself. That just because the people who have loved me have held me to an impossible standard does that mean that’s how love is supposed to look or howi should practice self-love. I’ve been waiting months for meds. I put up with being in Oklahoma for almost 8 years, I am still gentle with people who broke me. I need to be better about the tone I use with myself.